I am an educator, sort of. I teach life lessons to our youth. I attempt to impart on them knowledge I have gained over the years. Being that I have survived this long, I really was an idiot when I was younger, I feel it is my right and my duty to let them know what an idiot I was and how they will make their own mistakes and that it is okay to make mistakes. Mistakes are what make us better people.
Now for the meat of it. We have an inservice day today. We are all sitting around learning yet another way to teach. I am watching a video of a guy about 20 years younger than I am and he has great ideas. I am learning from a person much younger than I am. Would I watch these videos if I wasn't trapped in a room with my fellow educators? Probably not. I tend to watch videos of not work things, unless I have to for a class. I appreciate what we are going through.
Then comes lunch. By now I have spent 4 hours with a group of people I see everyday and many times over the weekend. I am not going to participate in the group lunch. Mostly because I want to listen to my thoughts for a few minutes, but also because even with the best intentions if I eat something someone else has cooked I will get sick (I have dietary restrictions being a Celiac). Does this make me anti-social? Absolutely. Am I okay with this? Absolutely. Are they okay with this? I am not sure I really care enough to ask or worry. It is times like this that I miss my wife and daughters. It is times like this I could really just use a day to watch tv and zone out. But that is not going to happen. I will eventually wander towards the voices coming from down the hall. I will smile sort of and engage in conversation. I will be trapped like a bear in a cage listening to the 1st grade teacher tell me why God has blessed me. I know He has, but when He makes me talk with her I feel like He is laughing at me, and I am cool with that to a certain extent.
All this being said I am off to go and be social.
